geez... im so bored now... since we dont have any discipleship classes today, i juz went to nccc nlang with my friend para magnet... *even though my net kmi sa bahay* l magawa eh... i cant wait in church for 2 and 1/2 hours straight doing nothing... well, i now i could talk to some of my friends... pero, l lang... boring dun eh..: anyway... hmm... boredom... the topic of the day.... got nothing to do...yare yare desu ne...T-T

moshimo imo subete ga umaku nante ikanai makesou ni naru tokidatte
hitomi o toshireba kokoro kara sekai ga miete kuru

IN this world where life can be so tough, you must be strong
Just believe in yourself and dont you fear
Just open up your mind and close your eyes

after two months.... im back!!! yey!!! anyway... yesterday, April 29, we went to GenSan to attend a wedding... well, i was kinda excited... coz im gonna be a part of it... not that im the bride or anything... but im juz a reader... but before, they planned n birdesmaid nlang or maid of honr, pero i bought my dress naman already... so anyway, it was quite tiring papunta dun... and quite scary too coz marami kng madaanan n landslide areas... despite all of that, there were so damn many beautiful views... as in!!! they'r so nice!!! maganda clng ipaint... on the way, bored ako coz wala akong magaw sa kotse namin... then bigla, naputol yung daan... so, it was quite a shock.. pro, nabored parin ako after... so, nagtake nlng ako ng pics ko usin my cp pero, i deleted them all coz i think they're bad... though my lil bro they were good pics... but i hated them... *what's the use of keepin those pics if i feel that i suck there?* :P anyway, when we arrived at GenSan, we stayed at the most wonderful hotel, the pride of GenSan, East Asia Royal Hotel... we stayed at room 517 at the 5th floor... well, i was quite comfortable coz my cousin, who's gonna be the grrom is at room 511 and the others at room 519.... basta pinakyaw namin ang buong 5th floor...^_^ so, lingaw, we only stayed at a standard room kc, l lang... uuwi rin naman kmi the next day... maganda sana kung deluxe or suite coz it's bigger and kung suite, may jacuzzi... bsta yun na yun... bsta, when we were inside the room n, we prepared our things for the wedding n pra hindi kmi magcram... i kinda like my dress, though it was my first time to wear one... why? coz it's a tube dress... something like that... 12:00 n, nagpeprepare n ang lahat... pero 3:00 p ang kasal.... we went to the church na, and i practiced the part where i was supposed to read... then, a woman, no a girl, not a lady, approached me and said that i was the only reader coz the other one cant come coz she has to attend a seminar.... so, i had to read the 1st reading, responsorial psalm, 2nd reading, and the prayers of the faithful... buti nga hindi ako ang commentator, kundi, mabuang n ako!! maubos talaga ang laway ko... so, whhen it started, we had to walk down the aisle... 1st, the bridal party, then the best man *my big bro*, then the groom and parents, readers of the Scripture or should i say, only reader of the Scripture, Secondary Sponsors (Candles, Veil, Card), Principal Sponsors, Bridesmaid and Groomsmen, Bible Bearer *yung pamangkin ko*, Coin and Ring Bearer, Flower Girls, MAid of Honor, and of course, the bride's parents together w/ the bride... so, after that, nanotice ko n sa 1st row ako nakaupo, which was...err...so uncomfortable...pero, k nlang... anyway, after the matrimony thingy, we ahd our pics taken, then after that, we went to the reception thingy na... sa Banas Farm.. BAnas with the ~ on the n... it was so cool there... the place was so good, the reception, man!!! so lingaw!!! the emcee was a DJ, yung background music kay some people*actually band* n magaling masyado, then, basta, maganda talaga ang amabiance... the reception started mga 5:30 ata... so, hanngang gabi kmi dun... after the blah blah blah, after the stuff n marami, meron yung catching of the bouquet thingy, *i dnt know how u call it, so mind me* they amde me join... sbi ko nga sa sarili ko, i wont catch that thing... i never knew n ibang style pla... prang pasa-pasa until mag-off ung music, nakatimer kc... so, i was so nervous, nagstop sakin, but i threw it*unnoticingly, if there's such a word* to the one to my right...kc left to right man... tapos, sya ang napili... MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! anyway, after nun, the boys had their chance, tapos after nun, bsta yun... *kapuy bya type* tapos after nun my opening of gifts, bitin-bitin n pera *tradition namin yun.. mga Ilokanos* tapos, many stuff ahppened after, then, givin of souvenirs... then,we went home... actually, yung pagdating namin sa hotel, napagod din kmi so, we changed, and stuff... pero, matagal din kmi natulog coz solo namin ang 5th floor, kaming magkakapamily ang-uusap dun... tapos, when we came abck to our respective rooms, natulog ako kaagad... kc kapuy... *yung next day sa next blkog n... kapuy type... chat pko... taos punta pko 4um...*

geez... im so tired... right after our exposure, we even had a practice... for the Chinese dance to be precise... it was so tiring... it was just like ballet... but it's really tiring... now my feet hurts... but i think it's ok once you've done enough practice... *sigh* AYOKO NA! i thought it was easy coz the frist were but then the following steps, man!!! it really hutr my feet!!!

i was so nervous!!! well, i sort passed the first screening... wel, sort of... i actually applied sor teh art department but i didnt pass there, so they placed me in the photo dept.. (coz i placed in my application form that i was a former photo journalist in our church..) they asked a lot of questions! and they made me sing! and they were all smiling at me... and then, i got a feeling that i was the one who's in the room w/ the editors for so long! i mean the others got out quickly but mine took so long! i was so nervous! and they made me guess who's the photo editor and the editor in chief, and the utility person (or whatever you call that person)... man! that was one hell of a screening! *big sigh* *breathe in, breathe out* wala na ko maisip na kanta so i sang the one in the coca cola commercial nalang... they all had evil grins and they keep on asking questions... and in my mind was like..*when will this ever end? it seems like it's a never-ending interview* *sigh* anyway, they were quite gara-gara... for some reason... and why the hell did they ask me a whole lot of questions?!?!?! ok... ok... i'll end it here... :P

juz wanna post this up...Ü yukikau hito wa minna omoi nimotsu seotte toku ni yureru kagerou no naka ni aihite wo mitsukeru kono te wo koboreochiru souna no youna kanjou ano toki mune ni sasatte kotoba ga fui ni uzuku kedo hatenai yuru wo kazoe nagara jibun wo kakera sagashite ita ushinau hodo no kona omi ga tashika ni natte'ku ima nara kitto aruite yukeru doko made mo... Ü

My Crush I have these feelings, deep inside feelings that I have to hide I don't know if he feels that way too And I don't know what to do When we're together, I feel uptight When he's around I feel so right I dream about what we can do And all the things we can pursue I yearn just to feel his touch And when he leaves, I miss him so much So for now I'll love him from afar One day I'll express how special you are So until then I will retain this rush And until then I'll contain my crush.

Some people think of Teen Love and smile. It's not real love, they say. Puppy Love, they call it. Those people, I think, have very short memories, and no longer recall the realities of their first love experiences. While few expect teen love to last a lifetime, that hardly makes it less real. Half or more of all adult love doesn't last a lifetime either. Teen love is very real. And powerful. Perhaps at no other time in our lives are the joys and pains felt as strongly, or experienced more deeply. Who among us, after all, can ever forget our first love? Platonic love is very much a part of any close friendship. But such a love doesn't always stay platonic. Sometimes it turns into passionate love. Crossing that line, between friendship and love, can be both beautiful and extremely difficult. You The first thing I think of When I think of you, Is your wonderful smile. The second would be your adorable laugh. I could go on and on, But the list would never end. When I think of the short time That we've been together And of all of the happy memories we've already shared It amazes me to no end And I know that we were meant to be together. I look at you and see overflowing love, hope, and joy As well as charm, strength, happiness and dignity. With all of these wonderful qualities It's no wonder I like you so.

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala... im juz so bored... oh yeah, check out this site.. www.yehey.com/exgame.htm i made this especially for mah fwends...Ü

happy bday to me! actually, i was supposed to post yesterday coz yesterday was my bday... but then i can't connect to the internet... so that's why... anyways, happy bday to me!Ü juz really really happy that im still alive and people greeted me and i was a part of the background thingy and people gave me gifts and i still have my friends, what more should i ask?Ü

noooooooooooooooooo!!!! missed rave! nooooooooo! even though i've watched it before but still... nooooooo! juz cam e home from school... still waited for my mom from the meeting and stuff.. and they finished late... noooooooo! and when i arrived here, rave is finished! noooooooooooo!!! the cravings of an anime lover... nooooooooo! ok.. so maybe i should change the topic into nooooooooooo!!! want more??? nooooooooo!!! nyahahhahahaha! bwahahahaha! sigh.. really really tired...